I’m opening up and I’m nervous So here it goes….
I always ask people for there resolutions and talk a lot about goals etc. I think sometimes Pt’s can appear to be so confident and absolute exercise machines, that we can appear to not worry about our bodies or have goals ourselves. This is totally not true for myself and I do work bloody hard for my fitness, and my business. I did decided I need to set a goal or two, and I am going to share them with you. I hope this will help people to set their own goals and to relate to me a little better.
Well this year I’ve decided to set two goals important to me (not diet or fitness related.)
1. To make more friendships
I had a lot of friends when I left Devizes three years ago, god knows I cried all the way up the m5 and m6 when I left to move up. I would go out with a group but end up usually chatting to most of wetherspoons and with another group by the end of the night. Due to the town being small, growing up there and for teaching most of the town at some point or another, I was able to go for coffees with people, pop around friends houses and talk about details of my personal life.
I no longer have that, I would love to feel confident to meet someone for a coffee and discuss life with in detail and personal things. I have a few clients I am close to and they have become friends but I don’t see any of them outside the gym. I would love to but I don’t. Maybe this will change.
I wonder why this is sometimes and why I struggle to meet friends (it’s not like I am not chatty lol). I think my unsociable hours at work don’t help. I don’t do anything outside the gym in the community like netball like I used to and I don’t have kids to meet other mums.
Also maybe people think I’m boring and wouldn’t drink and just talk about fitness? Partially true it’s dry January. My whole life is dry January lol, joking I do drink.
I am very happy with my best friends Joe and Suzi but I rarely see Suzi anymore and Joe is my hubby. Sometimes you need different friends and I do miss being little miss sociable.
2. To stop putting myself down
I have always been very hard on myself and maybe more so since I was at school. Being bullied didn’t help my self esteem. I always wanted to do the best but did have some lessons learnt. I learnt I can’t be the best academically I can only try and better myself. I therefore tried to be the best version of me or perfect for me. I never got there… No one is perfect so why do I always strive to be, or feel I have to be perfect?
Therefore I have decided to enjoy being me, I have congratulated myself on my physique so far. I work hard for it and learnt not to put myself down because of injury or illness. My biggest lesson this year was to stop comparing myself to others. I have always wanted someone elses hair (mines curly and frizzy) or skin. I am learning everyday to stop myself when I do this and be thankful for my own. I have many things to be thankful for and am a very lucky girl.
I think this is a common mistake us women make, and we do have a lot of media adding to that stress. Within 5mins of reading a magazine I feel less confident about myself and want to be better. It’s drummed into us everyday. So I no longer read magazines.
So far this is working out quite well 14 days in and iv felt more body confident and happier in my own skin in years.
I’ve stopped most negative thoughts and i have been kinder to myself. Yes I get the odd spot and can’t be arsed to wear makeup but I am who I am.
I love my job, my life, exercise and hope this post helps others to see the beauty within.
We are all different, and with my new resolutions I plan on remembering that and gaining some friendships. Isn’t that what we all want?